a simple cup of coffee. sometimes i art and sometimes its good.
100% want to sink in despair but even just thinking about how that would satisfy all those fuckers who never believed in me and derided me "for my own good" creates such a smouldering pile of rage in me it burns back the depression for a little longer
im not gonna spill anybodys business but talking someone down from the edge is ROUGH emotionally
sorry for the long absense ;;
ive been in a dark place but im with my family and theyve been helping me so dont worry
just got back from a psych eval analysis for my s/o and its both weird and a relief??? cause on one hand its like fuck yes, i can finally work on getting them the help they need, but on the other hand my s/o is shell shocked cause its one thing to hear stuff like that from me but its quite another to hear it from a proffessional. so im a little concerned? but its only cause i dont like seeing them unbalanced for any reason even tho i know this one is a good one
Me, dabbing while performing a sick kickflip: I'm experiencing physical and emotional burnout.
Sometimes you gotta treat your brain like an errant rude-ass child and condecendingly be the bigger person
I've got a head full of empty and I'm not afraid to use it
anytime i have negative thoughts about myself i know its my brain being fucky and stupid so i (try to remember to) contradict it with something positive.
cause i love myself, im awesome, and i make other people feel good when im around them
and tbh it rarely makes me feel better, but at least it stops me from feeling worse
thats just how it be sometimes